But the Curry Was Delicious

I meant to write this post a little earlier, before I got caught up in playing Kingdom Hearts II. As it turns out, that was fortuitous, as I actually have something to write about, at the risk of casting a pall over what I had hoped to create as a more upbeat idea blog. Regardless, circumstances should not be ignored in writing, I believe.

But first, I would like to inform all of my readers (who number may very well be close to nil at the moment) that the curry doughnut was very toothsome. Imagine an unsweetened long john (as I believe they're called), only, rather than being filled with custard, filled with curried beef. Or curried anything, actually. Very delicious. Unfortunately, the curry filling was slightly less than warm. The rest of Japanese class was filled with origami (the turtle and traditional crane) and gawking and gagging over an advertisement for Pizza Hut in Japan. I don't know, I could be old fashioned, but potato salad on a pizza doesn't sound very tasty. Still, it was a class of much enjoyment.

The rest of today was pretty uneventful. I had this idea I started putting to document that has been turning out quite well. Aside from my daily contemplation of the infinite, I've had the opportunity to consider what mattered to me, what leads me on through life. Unfortunately, from that stemmed a bit of conflict between a friend of mine and myself.

I have a friend, one who I've known since my later high school years. She's artistic, creative, and really handy with the abstract. She's strong, and also a little strong-willed and slightly headstrong. She's been supportive of me, especially when I've been in the quagmires of life. In that sense, I owe her quite a bit, and even as I'm typing this up, I'm beginning to reconsider how I felt about what has happened.

Still, an explanation is in order. Recently, I've been inclined to be irritated as we converse over IM. Sometimes, it's just difficult to talk about anything, since she's been busy with finals and the like, and understandably not very responsive. Regardless of the cause, I felt distanced from her, and I began questioning why we were friends as we have so many different ideas and  opinions. And in the past, I felt betrayed, sometimes used, sometimes ignored.

To set the picture accurately, we had just finished discussing her tagline, and my own determination to get my point across did little to keep the conversation casual. A sort of non-verbal cease-fire had been called, and she started talking to me about this poem she had written. Because I am not one who enjoys the music she enjoys, as I think it is typically dark, vindictive, and/or depressing, I braced myself for something of the same type.

The poem expressed her ideas without obscurity. Parts illustrated how she felt about her relationship with her boyfriend, which I enjoyed to a point, despite my current scoffing at relationships in general (read "love-forlorn bitterness"). Even so, I appreciated them for what they were, being an amateur word-smith myself.

The trouble started when I overstated a certain discomfort with the method she employed in expressing something less happy than relationships and love and the like. I can't really be critical of the way she reacted, seeing as I initially felt justified in my opinion. Then she got upset, and expressed a desire to call it a night, I apologized profusely upon realizing the injury inflicted, and it went downhill fast, eventually ending in a manner that did little to leave me comfortable.

And my quandry right now is this: should I try to pick this up soon after and try for a resolution? Or should I let it drop and move on? Assuming she will read this post, my decision might already be made. Otherwise, I still feel slightly injusticed, even though I was the offender here. I did my best to bite back some scathing remarks I wanted to make, with a good deal of success. And yet, will I let this friendship fall because my ego says I'm justified in being angry?

So, this is asking quite a bit for my second post, but even still, I'd like feedback, even if it so happens to be you are reading this months from its original posting. Otherwise, should I get the curry doughnut recipe, you aren't getting any. You have been warned.